So...it's been a long while since I've updated this.
Maybe I've been too busy. Maybe I've been too lazy. Maybe I just haven't known what to say.
It's probably a bit of all of those things.
I've been back home in Grand Rapids for almost three months. It's ridiculous how fast the time seems to have flown by. And what have I done with the time? I think that's something I ask myself a lot these days.
When I first got back, I was filled with a passion to go out and change something. It's not that the passion has died off or slipped away. It's more like I haven't known where to start. Is that a good excuse? Of course not.
But through this all I'm learning more and more about the faithfulness of God. How He pursues us. How He never gives up. How He is so constant to attend to our needs. How He will always push us further than we think we can go. He is always faithful. Will we have the faith to follow?
When I first got back home, I planned on staying in GR for three months and then heading back to Hawaii to take a five week class that would push me even further. But I let life back here pull me back and decided to not go. But the Spirit of God wouldn't let my heart rest. Every day for the last three weeks, He's been whispering into my heart, telling me to trust Him and to follow Him. He kept asking me if I'd be faithful back to Him.
And so, in two weeks I'll be heading back to Kona to take a 5 week class called Circuit Riders. The class is focused on deeping our relationship with God to higher levels and bringing what we've learned in "class" into the "real world." I'm not sure where I will go when it ends. I might come back to GR. I might head to a different country. I might stay in Hawaii. I don't know yet. But I do know that this is where I'm supposed to go.
I'm stepping out in faith because I cannot do this alone. He's good. He's faithful.
Thank you for sharing Julianne. I live in Holland and I am about to go on a missionary care journey to Asia with YWAM. I have been a part of YWAM in different ways for most of my adult life. I live in Holland currently....I found your blog because I was google searching one of the places I am going and I could not believe you just updated this today. Something my husband and I do is try and help YWAMers as they reenter regular life. I read your blog and I want you to know that you are in a normal process and that God has much more in store for you! Circuit Riders is going to be AMAZING...I just spoke with a friend from Washington who is going...her name is Katie and you will LOVE her. sooo...just wanted to encourage you today!!!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the encouragement! It really means a lot knowing there are people behind me supporting me in prayer. I am praying and hoping that the rest of the money will come in for me to go. I know God is faithful. I want to ask you to ask Him to see if He wants you to help support me in this next upcoming step. Thanks so much.
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