the God who loved me

Ahhhh....adjusting to this hot Hawaii weather and 6 hour time difference has been a wee bit interesting. I've finally been able to sleep thru the night without waking up at like 3 am Hawaii time.

This community living with 7 other girls has been a bit of a challenge as well. Our room is trashed right now, and I had to plunge a clogged toilet yesterday because no one else would. God, please teach me compassion and grace.

Monday was technically the first day of class...but our class took a field trip to the beach. :) It wasn't very warm out, but it was pretty nice still. I was so close to falling asleep lying in the sand several times. This is paradise. After we got back from the beach and cleaned up, later that night we met together as a class and just jumped into worshiping God. It was so incredible the way God met us all in the way we all needed.

So...Tuesday we actually had class. It was beautiful. I'm just going to share one thing we did and try to explain what God did...so just bear with it. lol.

One of the school leaders asked us all to close our eyes and imagine coming before the throne room of God. This is what I remember seeing and imagining:

There was a wooden door standing before me. The door was closed with a faded brass doorknob. I reached forward to grab the doorknob and open the door. As I touched the doorknob, it turned from a dark bronze to bright gold, shooting out over the whole door until it all glowed gold. I swung the door open and looked down at myself. I was instantly wearing a white, light-weight dress. I twirled it around and wondered why I was wearing a dress, feeling so beautiful. And I heard the voice of God say, "Because you are my princess." I looked around the room and saw nothing. It wasn't dark, but it wasn't bright. There was just light. And all of a sudden I felt the Spirit begin to dance with me. He pulled me wildly around the room and until He and I were one dancer. He was inside of me and moved with me. His dance was free flowing. And as quickly as it began, it ended. And the Spirit was gone. I saw Jesus walk toward me. His face was that of a groom as he stares lovingly and in awe of his beautiful bride dressed in white coming down the aisle. He looked at me and stared and smiled. His smile was constant and loving. He held me one hand and put his other hand on my waist. We began to waltz slowly around the room. He never stopped looking at me and smiling. He lead me slowly around the room. I could count the one-two-three step in my head as we danced. And then He let me go, still smiling. He stepped away from me. And then I saw the Father. He came towards me. I could not see a face or a body or anything, but I knew it was Him. He wrapped me in His arms and just swayed back and forth with me, rocking me. I wrapped my arms around His waist and just held tight to me. He said, "My daughter, I have been waiting for you. I don't care where you've been or what you've been doing. You are here now. You are with me." He took me by the hand and led me to a table. It was in a beautiful and warm place. I sat down and drank tea with my Heavenly Father. He rubbed my arm and touched my hands. He watched as I ate and drank. He stroked my face and brushed my hair out of my eyes. And then He said, "I want to show you something." He showed me the beautiful lands He had created, the beaches and mountains. He showed me the world- the green land and the blue ocean- as we looked at it from above. Then we dived into the water together, looking at the fish and the creatures under the sea. And then He led me away. We looked at the world and then continued into the galaxies. We looked at the stars and then He grabbed one and pulled it towards me. He looked at me and smiled. He said, "I made this star just for you. I knew that you would love all the beautiful stars I have made. I have created you and your eyes to sparkle like these stars so that others would see me thru you. You are beautiful." Then we returned to our table and sipped tea together with the Father just looking at me and touching me. Then I had an intense desire to worship the God who loved me. Although the Spirit nor Jesus nor the Father had said they loved me, I felt their love. I could physically feel the love of God. I got up and began to create a dance. It contained a piece of each of the dances from before. I moved freely and spirited and then slid into a three-part waltz step and then ending with a slow dance. I danced over and over before the throne room of the God who loved me.

It was beautiful. God has been teaching and showing me so many different things; and I’ve only been here for a couple days. God is good.